Ruth Everhart

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Narrated By: Pamela Almand

Duration: 9 hours and 20 minutes

What to expect

“It happened on a Sunday night, even though I’d been a good girl and gone to church that morning.”

One brisk November evening during her senior year at a small midwestern Christian college, two armed intruders broke into the house Ruth Everhart shared with her roommates, held all five girls hostage, and took turns raping them at gunpoint. Reeling with fear, insecurity, and guilt, Ruth believed she was ruined, both physically and in the eyes of God.

In the days and weeks that followed, Ruth struggled to come to grips with not only what happened that night but why. The same questions raced through her mind in an unrelenting loop―questions that would continue to haunt her for years to come: Why me? Where was God? Why did God allow this to happen? What am I being punished for?

Told with candor and unflinching honesty, Ruined is an extraordinary emotional and spiritual journey that begins with an unspeakable act of violence but ends with tremendous healing and profound spiritual insights about faith, forgiveness, and the will of God.


Memoirs, Christian life and practice, Religious aspects of sexuality, gender and relationships, Biography: general, Gender studies: women and girls, Violence and abuse in society

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“In addition to her theological analysis, Everhart is at her best when dismantling the sexism that surrounds rape…This is a touching and empowering story of healing.”

Publishers Weekly (starred review)

“[This] perfectly balanced volume has equal relevance for readers of true crime and progressive theology…Forthright, compassionate, and expertly crafted.”